Wednesday, August 03, 2011

In a dark place

Yesterday I had this dream that a good friend of mine was dead. I was sad and crying, not wanting to believe that she was really gone. But then I was talking with her parents, and they told me that although she was dead, somehow her spirit or ghost was still present, that you could feel her presence in this cave in a nearby forest. So I ran to look for the cave and found it in a grassy clearing. It was a cave in the ground, almost a straight hole down and I couldn't see the bottom, it was pitch-black. I started to climb down and immediately I could feel the presence of my friend, growing stronger the further I went down. But the cave was very dark, and there was water and I knew it was deep, bottomless. I also knew that she was down there, in the blackness, somewhere. I tried to move, to force myself to go down there but I couldn't. I was scared of the water, knowing I would drown if I went any further. So after awhile I climbed out of the cave, crying all the way up. And I hated myself for being too damn afraid to dive into the black water and find her.

So when I woke up, I started to draw this diver, someone braver than me, someone who can find her.


6 comments:

Tilkku said...

Sun unenkertomistaitosi on vailla vertaa. Toi on tuttu tunne, kamala uni, josta herääminen jättää raskaan ja pahan olon. Upea kuvitus jälleen kerran!

Markku said...

Kitoos!
Kamalat unet synnyttää hyviä kuvia? Entäs hyvät unet sitten? Niistä en uskallakaan piirtää jos tuleekin vaan huonoja kuvia ;)

vic said...

why do you look for your friend in a cave, in a dark place?

she is in heaven, in a beautiful garden. her spirit will bring you peace, light, silence and an acceptable sadness.

Markku said...

Cos after death, the energy departing from our atheist bodies clearly prefers dark, murky places instead of gardens maintained by keepers with quite questionable motives.

The soil is in which our energy on this planet is attached.

Anna Emilia said...

Voi miten hienoa Markku, vaikka onkin hurja uni. Mutta hyvin hyvin hieno kuva.

Mukavaa, kun kirjoitit ja piipahdit sääpäiväkirjaani. Nyt löydän tänne varmasti uudestaan.

Janne said...

Erinomainen kuva ja tosiaan, kirjoitettu kuvaus toisen surullisen hienosti eloon!